I wanted to review this year from start to finish.
I kicked off the year 2010 at (my soon to be girlfriends house) Emily’s house. I had just spend the xmas holidays doing a whole lot of nothing and was really excited to go to this new years bash. All in all it was a pretty great time seeing how I got a girlfriend out of it ha! :)
I remember the typical status updates on facebook and twitter. Everyone saying, “can’t wait to see what God does this year” ya know, all these really “empowering” updates trying to gear up the troops, so it would seem.
So how was 2010? To me 2010 was a middle year. If you know what I mean. If not, i mean that it just rested between what’s happened and seeing what will happen. To a point it wasn’t a year that anything major happened. What did happen this year was that I grew distant from certain aspects of my life.
This whole year I’ve been wondering what is next. I’m nearly done with Uni and have no idea where I will go come july 1st 2011. I do trust that God will lead me into a place to be, but what does that even mean? We can’t just simply sit around and wait for something amazing to happen, you gotta work at it and see what door it worth taking.
Off and on this year I have been contemplating doing a Masters degree in Creative Writing. My current degree is on Theology. Its been fun doing the study, but I have to admit I’m a bit disappointed with the results of where it would/could take me, at this point in time. I was able to do an internship in the middle of this degree, but that was virtually fruitless and I had to give up an internship for 2010 because it was going to bankrupt me. All in all I have been wondering what to do and where to go. I still have a term left of my degree and I have no answers. Other people have scored jobs and placements but I’ve literally got nothing. Is this the right attitude to have? I say yes. We are all here for a reason, a purpose. If your reason or purpose isn’t being fulfilled than what do you have…nothing. A constant worry maybe of what will happen next, sure, I do have that.
Detachment was a good thing this year. I stepped back and just observed. observing is a fascinating thing for sure. You get to see things in a different perspective. And what I saw was that after all the time and effort I made in certain areas when times were hard no one really made an effort to see what was up, but rather just made the effort to talk about what was up with outside people. And that was and is discouraging. What I also observed is that things are far more worse than they appear. The world is fallen into a self-gaining attitude to a point that even friendship are only based on what can be gotten out of it. And when there is nothing to be gained then there is no reason to make an effort. the world doesn’t know what it means to have real friendship anymore. But like other times there are still some who do.
Well, well the year wasn’t a total downer. More just eye opener.
I have really enjoyed my studies. They have been fascinating. And I’ve also enjoyed getting to know my new, however by now not so new, house mates. I have had an amazing time with Emily and her family. We did some really fun stuff over the year. All starting off with some nice times going on nice little dates like going to Hard Rock Cafe going to squirrel park, and blowing off uni for a nice walk. We had a nice time over the summer as well, going to the Lake District, Beeston Castle, the beach, and other little thing here and there. It was really fun when we went to America for about a month. It was fun to pop back to my hometown and see people and show emily where I came from. It made me laugh that she though Anderson, Indiana was cool. And her amazement with the insane amount of places to eat on Scatterfield road. We also had good times going to Chicago and hanging about on Navy Pier and on Lake Michigan. Upon returning to Uni in Sept the term seemed to rush by.
I think some of the highlights were when me and some friends riffed over a couple of films (twilight:eclipse and Prince Caspian) and putting some final touches on a story me and my friend have been working on. As well as having Emily’s family introduce me to the amazing Doctor Who. I was also able to see one of my favourite bands in Manchester, Anberlin. It was a really great show, and I was able to share the concert with some nice friends. It was also pretty fly seeing the Captain America film set in the Northern Quarter in Manchester.
So all in all, for a year that nothing major happened I still managed to do some pretty fun thing and share in some pretty cool experiences. In the year 2010 I think I grew up a lot. I’m not a kid anymore, though I still hold on to that inner kid, I feel older and more mature. I do wonder what 2011 hold, but I don’t see any reason to force high expectations on a new year. Cause in all honestly I like to take life one day at a time and look forward to each and every new day and the experiences they will hold. 2011 I’m sure will be a year of change and moving on into a new area of life. I do have plans to work on my portfolio and apply for a creative writing MA and other ambitions. However, if I had one goal it would be to belong. Because for me 2010 was a year that I didn’t feel like I belonged. That said I am happy for the people in my life and times spent with them, as well as happy with my choices in life, because the biggest thing I learned was that it doesn’t matter what other people think you should do, as long as you are happy and God is vibrant in your life that’s all that matters.
Happy New year world!